Three's a Charm?

If you aren't up for a totally honest, and yes, emotional, post, you might as well stop reading now...

CT keeps saying we have to stay positive. And in theory, I agree. I truly believe that positive thinking can create positive actions or results. But sometimes its just so darned hard to stay positive. Like, really really hard.
2 miscarriages, a year apart. A year of trying. And its not enough that you have to go through the emotional pain of the loss...but its a very physical pain too. Each day reminding you of what you are going through. I guess it should make me grateful for how amazing the human body is and that we CAN go through things like this and still come out kicking on the other end of it. But I don't really feel that way, I just feel frustrated that its not over with yet.
Everyone says this happens all the time, to so many couples. And I know it does! I know that there are tons of women out there who go through much more painful experiences, and I have to remind myself that we should be grateful that we can even get pregnant, and that the miscarriage happened so early! But sometimes I don't understand why it happens to us. Sounds pretty juvenile, right? Its just hurt feelings talking more than anything else.

I guess I'm just ready for something totally amazing and beautiful. I feel like we deserve it...we're good people who try really hard to never hurt others and to live honest and happy lives. I know that I'm not giving up hope that good things are coming, and reminding myself that God's timing is not my own. I just have to be patient, hopeful, and positive. But seriously, can it just happen now please?

~CJ